My sister does sleep
With her head on the car seat
As we're heading East
Crossin' Kansas in the rain

The speedometer does read
Something like seventy
As the windshield wipers scrape the window-shield
Crossin' Kansas in the rain

And when I was a little child
I got behind the steering wheel
And looked out at the countryside
And wondered how it might feel
And is freedom really what you mean
And is freedom really what you need

So much water from the sky
But on Sundays this state is dry
I lick my lips and try to smile
Crossin' Kansas in the rain

Jack and Neil aren't here
It's rather godless I fear
As I'm behind the wheel
Crossin' Kansas in the rain

I want to throw-up in this old detox again
They say own up, there's no place
That you ain't already been
But my mouth is on fire
I'm breaking out in a sweat again
Shuffling in slippers a pajama sole
Bumming cigarettes from a bathroom stall
Making us sit through those meetings again
The T.V.'s too loud and my skin's too thin
I want to shout, I want to yell
My head is aching like the ring of a bell

And I feel like I been nailed to this bed
Everything I remember is something else instead
Oh, what's a new life
When all you've ever really been is half-dead
And I'm seeing those police lights flashing in my head
I've been chased my whole life by that spinal dread
I don't have a lover, I don't even have a friend
And I don't have a reason and a can't pretend
I think I'll regret, I'll regret that I said
I'd never touch that booze again

And I have seen the light coming from behind you
I have seen the light and it's flashing blue
And I have seen the light coming from behind you
I have seen the light and it's flashing blue

As you lose a tear, please do take care
As you stumble through your day
Spun around like some sorry clown
Pointed in the wrong way
Bent in half like an hourglass
Pouring out all you have left
Tripped up like a mongrel pup
That's simply been left for dead.
And what would still mean something
After your story's told
If you were the only soul she sold?

And can't you see that I'm broken
And I can't find my way back home
All these words that I've spoken
Will never lead me back
To where I come from

Yet I can see my mother's face
Bending over me
Taking away the nightmares with
her insanity
Now I watch the beggars walk
Past me like I'm a ghost
Like they can see inside of me,
Every part that you broke

I prayed to God, I prayed to Hell
That I would confess
But what I could not take back
Was all that I had left

And if I turned my back on you
Would you think I wanted to?
If I turned my back on you
Who would I turn to?

So I'm a little man
Hardly more than a boy
I never really fit the bill
Even with your say so

I prayed to God, I prayed to Earth
That I was innocent
Foolish enough to believe
I'd be judged on my intent

And if I turned my back on you
Would you think I wanted to?
If I turned my back on you
Who would I turn to?

The teacher told me how to start
On this long walk
And what was found was maybe what was lost
And it leaves me bodiless...leaves me bodiless

Eight years went by and I lived on my own
in an abandoned temple where I made my home
My wife never believed that I was really dead
And one day I saw her message in the newspaper I read

The teacher said I could return
(my son would marry soon)
And where we finish is where we must start
And it leaves me bodiless...bodiless...

Our two sons are grown and married now
She and I live together but still apart somehow
She says that she's a single woman now
We've left a life behind to let another out

I stare at the pictures in my hand
of my grandchildren
So far away and yet so very close
And it leaves me bodiless...bodiless...bodiless...bodiless

© 2004 1 Stop Past Your Destination Music / Synesthetic Octopus

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Do I take your breath away
Running myself down each day
But if your little hand should drop
I don't think that I would get back up and

Are we, only, killing time?
And are we, only, killing time?

It's hard to hurt, harder to heal
Hard to get stuck under those wheels
That are turning over so fast
Until you lose yourself at last and

If I had a dream come true
Maybe I'd be lost with you
Some where so far away from here
Just so we might disappear and

Are we, only, killing time?
And are we, only, killing time?

Who can say what the future brings
Maybe time will tell you something
But I can't wait to see

So I will say it just one time more
God knows that I've been wrong before
Oh, I've been wrong before
I've been wrong before
I've been wrong before…

But are we, only, killing time?
And are we, only, killing time?
And are we, only, killing time?
And are we, only, killing time?

Once upon a time in a world
In the tears of a little girl
There's a place where you sleep
Beneath a blanket and a sheet

I saw these cops holding onto a woman
Who was crying out and in pain
She fell to the sidewalk with the cops foot on her
So that she couldn't run away
I've been sittin' in this window for more than an hour
And I've got a bad case of the five o' clock shadow
They wrapped her up tight in the stretcher bed
And the ambulance left with its lights flashing red

There's a shoe that is worn
From pacing the halls of reality
Waiting for the tide to turn
Just like Moses and the red sea

I was driving at a hundred miles an hour
And I got a bad case of the five o' clock shadow
If I flinch maybe less than an inch
I could spend Christmas in a new place
Some people wonder while other people sour
From the dirty basement to the ivory tower
In between the cracks the grass grows in
Where one ends the next begins

Check your pulse with a touch
Your heart is beating just this much
Take a breath in quite slow
You can feel your blood flow

I've been sittin' here for over an hour
And I've got a bad case of the five o' clock shadow
Maybe if I can just shave it away
I'll make it through just one more day

If you tell me once, you won't have to tell me twice
I'll stake this on my lousy life
My dreams went north and I went south
They say don't look a gift horse in the mouth
Don't look a gift horse in the mouth

So please tell me what you've got
Cause I don't think it's anything
That I want

Can you see it there in my eye
Where the tragic flaw must surely lie
Trapped inside here with what is left
They say a coward dies a thousand deaths
A coward dies a thousand deaths

And where are you? Where are you? Where????
And where are you? Where are you? Where????

There are cat calls and cement blocks
Rusted steel pressed to the brick
A growling dog with a broken leg
Will lie under the pale willow

And where are you? Where are you? Where????
And where are you? Where are you? Where????

Were you nothing less
Than fertilizer
Were you nothing more
Than a saviour
Were you nothing but
The little cries heard
From a baby

The ground's not hard, your foot is dull
And your heart's not soft, it's gravy
And your mouth has turned the words around
Until they sound outrageous
And where are you? Where are you? Where????
And where are you? Where are you? Where????

And I've seen the day fading in the summer sky
I know there's a reason but still I wonder why
I can't seem to muster the strength to even try to
Find my way again this time

And if love don't last forever
Just what would we do?
And if love don't last forever
Just where would I find you?

I could be your rag doll
And be there where you are
I could be your rag doll
There underneath your arm
I could be your rag doll
Never far from home
And I could be your rag…doll

I'm standing on your door step hoping that
You'll open up the door
I'm another stray that's simply searching
For another home

And if I outstayed my welcome, I simply moved on
Trying to lose this feeling, inside my bones
But it follows me like a phantom's cape
And it's the one thing I still can't shake

And if love don't last forever
Just what would we do?
And if love don't last forever
Just where would I find you?

I could be your rag doll
And be there where you are
I could be your rag doll
There underneath your arm
I could be your rag doll
Never far from home
And I could be your rag…doll

Last time I saw you, well you mentioned
You might be heading down to Tennessee
Now I've got your wallet, I've got your wallet
But nobody knows where you might be

I watched the sun go down over the ocean
I t was a smooth and golden sea

You lost your wallet, oh you lost your wallet
And just where you'll be found remains to be seen

Who can listen to, all those questions
That have no answers or any clues
And tomorrow, brings no promise
To those who have nothing left to lose

I saw the trees waving softly in the wind
The whole forest seemed to dance limb to limb

So you lost your wallet, you lost your wallet
So how did your wallet find me?

You lost your wallet, oh you lost your wallet
And just where you'll be found remains to be seen

And this is how you ended
Up a hot dog vendor

A little worse for wear but
With a smile there
There wasn't anyone
You couldn't like
They said you had two kids
And a wife that was using
And something about losing
A job you had

And did the old man laugh when
He heard you were a hot dog vendor

And there's a warm wind
At sunset tonight
And there's a sad and empty feeling here
Floating by
Now the bells at Saint Raymond's
They begin to ring
And for a moment I think I can see you there
Still standing

But drinking like a broke dam
They said you were depressed and
Sunday night you took
A handful of pills
And were you trying to end it
Or were you just scared that
You didn't know how
To get out of this

Now people are asking where
Is the hot dog vendor

Now they have left flowers
And candles where for hours
You stood in
Your last days
A shadow casts across
The sidewalk and is lost
Leaving nothing
In its place

But you didn't want to end
Up as a hot dog vendor
No you didn't want to end
Up as a hot dog vendor

© 2004 1 Stop Past Your Destination Music / Synesthetic Octopus

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